Dud of a Daydream

Sometimes, I daydream about having absolute control over my emotions. I daydream about being a less pathetic version of Athama.

In a lot of ways, I've come to resemble the girl I once depicted.

"I am a cold, hard bitch," I warn people. (But there's the whole axiom where the more often someone feels the need to make a statement, the more one should question the veracity of that statement.)

I don't have absolute control over my emotions. I never will. And, as much as I may occasionally daydream about becoming a less pathetic version of Athama, it is a fantasy I will never actively pursue.